What Does Rock Bottom Feel Like?

In the last 2 weeks I lost my job, and I lost the girl that I thought would be the 1st Mrs. BigLongBeach. The part that hurts the most is that I didn't get a reason why? It is creating a doubt in myself.

2014 I had a losing year in poker.  I was a solid winner in live cash games but I only won a few tournaments and I didn't cash in any of the higher buy in tournaments. The cash game wins weren't enough to make me even for the year.

All the weight I lost in 2012-2013 I gained it back plus another 20lbs.

So I am a loser in lover, a loser in my career, a loser in poker, and I am fat again!  The scary part is that this isn't rock bottom. What does rock bottom feel like?  I pity anyone that has hit that point.